I cant believe that i came to a point in life....
that i had no choice and to tell lie...
I tried ok! i seriously tried! i do my best in any way....
But i cant, i just cant.... ):
What for i be honest with everything?
What do i get in return...? .... o,O?
I'm hate myself nowsaday... !!!
I'm not 'me' ... not behaving like what i usually does...
For example:
I will be friendly to anyone, and start a simple conversation...
...but now i dont.?
I will still talk, reply sms, or smile towards everyone....
...but now i dont.?
I will stop what i'm doing whenever you come to my mind...
... but now i dont.? ( shake my head, and off you go )
I will keep looking at my phone, hoping for your sms...
... but now i dont.? ( cause i'm waiting for you to sms me, and i know you wont )
I will have the motivation to force me to go school...
...but now i dont.? ( it just dont make sense )
I will eat at least three meals a day, and my medication on time...
...but now i dont.? ( no appetite, no point eatting med also )
Things went the other way, and i cant stop it.
Who exactly out there, knows me the best?
Who knows, when i dont reply a conver, means something is not right?
who knows, when do i mean my words, and when i dont?
who knows, when i'm joking, and when i'm serious?
who knows, when am i angry, sad, happy?
who knows, how i feel inside me?
who knows, how my life is like?
Ya, hong was right.
Lying is somehow good at certain times.
So, my words will all be 'lie' now...
Believe it or not?
If you care for me, know me well, feel me...
you will be able to tell...0,0
Night readers!
My mind is corrupted...
I'm 'happy' ppl...
~Lies are everywhere in this world~