Its been quite sometime since i last post.
Still the same, life is cope up with studies and work.
Going out with friends = money fly away.
But but but, when out with friends, the smile on my faces automatically appear.
For you Annabelle,
After one year, we finally talk.
The greatest mistakes that i have made in life is to make you disappointed in me.
Firstly i want to thank you for forgiving me, and be friends with me again.
I no matter what, the flame that i lighted in you will always be there.
There's is no way i could put it out, but only can decrease the disappointment level in you.
There are many things that i want to tell you. But i guess i do not have the chance to say it out anymore.
What i want now, is to be a better friend of yours.
Maybe im waiting for you somewhere deep down in my heart.
Maybe i still love you, the feeling is still there after so long.
I held myself back at many things, and this is because i do not have the confidence i once had.
The whole year that we did not contact, i was like a walking dead.
You wont know how im feeling at that point of time.
And i waited for one year, i did not give up, because i still believe in one thing.
That is, I want to have back the friendship that i once had.
I want to play and joke around with you again.
I want to have fun and laugh like how you behave with others.
Will all this be possible?
After all im sorry for what i've did last time, and i hope we can be friends forever.
For you JiaJing,
Somehow, i felt that its fated for me to get to know you.
We know each other in RP and as times flies, i get to know you better.
Slowly, unknowingly, i fall for you. I really fall for you.
You are one girl that i would sacrifice anything for, protect you like a guardian angel and treat you like no one ever treated you before.
You are a quiet, intelligent, strong, and unique girl to me.
I see the differences in you compare to the other girls i've seen.
Sometimes, i really wish to have the chance to be your only listening ear.
To lend you my shoulder when need, to be your entertainer and make you happy.
Frankly speaking, i do not know whether should i wait for you.
It will be a tough challenge for me because i still dont know you well.
I dont know why, whenever im with you, i see through your eyes and i can feel that you are feeling sad deep in you.
You kept all your sorrows in you and nvr tell anyone about it. I know you have and i wish to know whats bothering you. If possible i wish i could share your burden together.
If that darkness in you nvr comes out, im nvr gonna stop trying to make you happy.
You amy have your reasons why you do not wish to let out your sorrows, but i really wish to see you smile happily from the bottom of your heart.
It doesnt give me a good feeling when i know you more than others, but not able to help you in your troubles.
You are really a unique girl, and im sure i fall for the right person.
For you Amanda,
There's quite a number of things i want to tell you.
I wish i had the chance but sadly i dont have.
You are a cheerful and friendly girl.
I did fall for you last time. And i made a mistake to ignore you and choose not to confess to you.
I want to apologies for ignoring last time, now i find that im being a fool with my actions.
I know i had fall for you, but i do not have the courage to tell you.
Im afraid that i will end up hurting you and myself, and so i choose not to tell you.
The feeling that you gave me is to protecting and dote you like my own sister.
So i choose to keep you in the dark about how i feel.
You may have the guy you like, and you may have your troubles.
I care and concern for you. I doubt you know this.
We are busy with life, you had your life and i had mine.
All i can do is to text you fortnightly and see how you are doing.
I know you wont tell me how you feel or what troubles you are facing.
And i know you are just treating me as a best friend.
I will let you continue to treat me as your best friend at work, and i will treat you like my sister.
Hope you can find your happiness soon.
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Every now and then new people appear in our lifes.
We are fated to know each other and become friends.
Treasure the friendship that you have now, because, i dont think you will get to find another like this.
I may now love nobody, and i will choose to get going in life.
Staying on to my daily fix schedule.
School, work, home.
i guess this is life.
I thank God to let me know all the people around me.
I believe God have the reason why he choose to let me get to know this group of people.
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~Time will prove and heal everything. Time is what we need and treasure.~