So, one semester had past.
Holiday now, and when school reopen, it will be again a brand new start.
Going to have lots of awkward moments and knowing new people.
I'm not sure whether will i adapt to the new class and get bond with them
I'm a weird person, so as to speak, no ones understand me.
Getting on with life, after what happen about a month ago.
I still have no idea what went wrong between the two of us.
Things just seem to go worng so suddenly and i wish i would have the chance to ask you personally.
But sadly, i dont...
We are so close but yet so far.
What happen, between us, i serious had no idea and wish someone could just tell me
Now, i guess we are total stranger.
MAybe this may not be bad idea.
If fate allows, i hope we could bump into each other again, and start a new friendship.
After that, i decide to give up everything that i had held on for long.
Yes, i let go for that few pathetic days.
I dont know whether do i just had a crush on you or certainly just treating you as a very close friend.
The rest say that my action were too obvious to tel that i like you.
But i ask myself, is it true??
I'm always uncertain about my feelings, whihc i hate it alot.
How? Is there any kind soul out there that would guide me.
EVen if i confess to you, i already knew what's your response or answer would be.
Contradicting is, if i never try how i know it will fail?
Haiis....
Work was gettting somewhat boring..
I felt that i got position over there any more.
No one to blame, but the world is changing.
From what i can see, each banch of new people that are coming in are different.
Too different from last time.
Never mind, work for the money and maintain the motivation and relationship i had build up over there.
Lesser and lesser people are working..
we are getting less and less bond together.
Everyone is busy with life, i guess.
When i'm at work, i will have lots and lots of flashback.
Standing there, nothing to do, makes me think back of the happy moments i had over there.
How i wish time would stop there and the fun and joy i had with her nvr ends.
Sometimes i miss the times that i call you 'Baby', had lunch together, laughing together, playing while working together, and i spend this year valentines day with you.
I had the flash back that you cried in front of me, and i felt useless...
All of this will never gonna happen again.
What have gone had gone far far away and never will it come back again.
Hope that things will become better.
Yes, frankly speaking i'm sad.
Deeply in me i felt unfair.
But i'm old enough to be mature enough to think positively.
It maybe stormy right now but it will not rain forever.
I will try to be strong and will stand back up after each knock down.
I will smile as much as i could to keep me from thinking too much.
"I just want to say, i have feelings for you, yes i still do though i said i've give up.I may not be the one whom you will choose, but rather i hope i had the chance to be the one."
~Loving one person doesn't mean you have to be together with her, but rather make her live her life happily, and when she is happy, you yourself will be happy too.~