I did something foolish, ad somewhat i felt that it is a joke.
I make the wrong choice of confessing to you that night,
but now i realised that it's a right chioce that i did not confess to you last night.
I spend my whole night at your work place.
In the first place, i swear i did not go purposely.
Before that, i already have a bad feeling about it.
I spend my whole night there.
When i saw you, i was enlighten! Seriously!
It's been days since i last saw you, but to me it's like centuries long.
I really miss you.
Though we text each other, i felt that you've change.
As in the way you text me.
Is it because now you know i like you, or is it because of something else.
Before i leave your workplace, i say i will wait for you to off work, and you replied ok.
I was happy. I dont deny.
But I waited from 6 to 9am.
The weather condition was cold and dizzling.
I waited with an empty stomach, and Daniel saw that i almost puke out.
I send out three text at the earlier time but you reply at 8;59.
I believe that you left the place, with someone else i guess.
I seriously had no idea what's your reason for this action.
That duration that i was there waiting for you,
and the reply you gave.
It really tells me how much i meant to you, even we were just friends.
All the while, I was having flashback.
Though we did not knew wach other for long but still...
From the day i met you, all the fun times, the sad moments, it all came to me at once.
I dont think you even care about my presence in your life.
With or without me it's the same.
When i recieved your text, or maybe i can say the last text....
Actually i dont feel that upset at the first place, but the smile you put at the end.
It tells and shows me everything. Perhaps let me see through you.
If it was meant to be a joke, I can tell you it isn't funny.
I am not angry at you, totally NO, i swear!
I just dont know why, and disappointed.
After viewing that text, i walk from cine to ion.
On the journey, there's a 'undescribeable' feeling in me.
There's a chinese saying, "Cry with no tears."
Now i know how it felt like, i seriously dont like it.
You are forgiven.
I wont blame you.
Im at fault too.
Maybe its better for me to be alone for now.
Sorry people if i did not replied your msg or answer your call.
~I love you, i really do. I just hope you gave me a chance to prove it to you.~