Tiring day. How come?

Today it's a tiring day for me.
Dont know why also...
Early in the morning wake up unwilling...
Force myself to school de...
Haiis... dont feel like going school...
HAve to travel so far and spend so many hours sitting down.
No choice and have to tolerate for three years.

There's so many things i want to say but i dont know where to start from.
The way i talk to you now is like how we talk at the beginning of our friendship.
Short conversations.... haiis...
Who to blame? Me lo....

Tired ttm. Resting early tonight.
Goodnight reader.
Will post longer 2morow.

~i love you, but i dont know what would happen if i confess to you.~

Did i make the wrong choice?

Today is a busy day for me, i guess.
So many things to do, need to finish the poster stand and still got UT!
Haiis....
UT was still okok, able to do some of the questions.

There's so many questions in me that i kept asking myself.
But what for i kept asking myself and there's no answer to it???
Where can i find the answer, when can i know the answer?
I seriously came to a point where i dont even know what i'm doing??
I dont even know who am i, or do i really know myself well?
HAve i made the right choice to wait?
Am i really gonna give up the whole forest just for that particular seed still buried in the ground.
Am i still gonna stubborn, or is it the right thing to do?
I seriously dont know, really dont know...

I guess that keepig quiet is the best solutions to all.
Nothing would change if i say it out, but then if i dont say it out, things changes fast and unexpected.
Why is it like this?
or is this life??
Who exactly can give me the answer to all my questions, to all my doubts?

(Hey, i just wanna tell you that i miss the time where we use to be so close together.
We had fun at work, all the joy and laughter we had. I miss the day that i spend my this year Valentine's day with you. The lunch at Pizza Hut, and how we spent our day at work. I did have the urge to buy a present for you, but i was too late. I miss the chance and i dont think there's another time i could do it again. I miss that night that you cry in front of me. I was shock, i was at a loss of what to do. I feel like hugging you but i never, beecause i dont dare to. Instantly i felt heartbroken seeing your tears roll out of your eyes, and i felt useless at that point in time. I miss the time that i use to send you to the bus stop every night after work. Even though i did not send you back home but still i felt.... Now... it's all gone... it has ended and i guess there wont be another time where allthis could hapen again.)

I miss everything, i lost all the thing, because f my foolish act and decision.!!
I wish that somebody can just give me one tight slap and wake me up!
there's nothing i could do now. So, i'm jut gonna go with the flow.
Praying to GOd and hopes he hears my voices.

Night readers!

I'm back...

So many things happen in this few months..

Work:
I've transfer from Sushi Tei ( SG) to ( NEX ) .
Never regretted on my decision and i think it's the correct choice to leave there though having much relationship with the people there.
Now, everyone have left, two seniors of mine have quit, AM has transfer to ( TP ) and seldom part timers are wroking nowsadays.
So, luckily i left and came ot NEX. Though till now i still cant find or create the feeling that i once use to had at the previous outlet, i'm trying hard t create that among the whole service crew. I hope one day, we wil be exactly like a family.

Studies:
School have started. A month have pass. And UT is round the corner.
School was kinda cool. Met a class of 25 new friends. Quite a fun and interesting class to be in.
Learning new stuffs again, in a total new environment.
Problem solving, Organisational behaviour, Engineering Design, Math, Science!! Woots!!
Interesting and fun modules!
But but but... i dislike the timetable... everyday the same routine...
830-330, each day just that is a diff module.
MAybe after a few more weeks i will be adapt to it le ba..
Missing the life in secondary school!!! but this is life, everyone of us have to move on and none should choose to move back.

Life:
Kinda closing an eye towards everything.
Tolerance and forgiveness i'm telling myself everyday.
Now, i know more about myself, after this few months.
Now i know that, im always unclear of my feelings.
Never once had i been clear of it... tmd... seriously..
I blame no one.. but myself... blaming myself on everything....
Telling myself to be more positive looking.

Love:
I should apologise to you, even though i dont know what i've done wrong...
I knew things would turn out to be like this, like how it is like today...
You going towards the left to achieve your high goals in life, and i take the right path which leads me to where i want to go to.
The problems lies on, we do not know each other well enough, and now everything turns to be like this.
I'm should go with the flow now ba.
Never am i gonna tell you how much i use to love you.
Earth is round, if we are fated we will meet one day, somewhere!

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Still quite alot of stuffs to say....
never mind... slowly post ba....
no rush....
Byebye!!!

-Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leap fences, penetrates walls to arrive at it's destination, full of hopes.-

It's another....

Hi blog!! Guess nobody is looking at this blog already...

Blog maybe later in the day.

Quite alot of thngs to post!